hmmk

I wont be blogging any more, maybe randomly in a couple months but I no longer hold interest in this. if you want to know whats new text me, or stalk my instagram, or facebook me.

Peace.

Le neon le le

Neon #2 bites the dust

sigh,

time for a third neon.

So much for getting ahead.

this month will be the death of me.

sigh.

happiness is all about perception, and my perception of March is bull shit. year after year of bullshit.

Peace.

Bruh

I’mma care for you, you, you. You make it look like it’s Magic. 🙂

Ten points for whoever gets what this this about ^

Haha, I just got done a 70 min jog, and have work in like T-minus 15 min.

So just figured I’d throw in a quick ” I’m alive no worries” kinda post.

FINALLY, have savings again.. And on ma feet (insert bitch emoji)

Now I’ve just gotta save like a milla dolla and then we good for this summer 🙂

But serious, I may be panning a little too much but I’ve always liked a challenge. Just gotta work hard if I wanna play hard. (And stop buying Timmies and going to cunninghams)

Anyways I’m out.

Stay Beautiful and Positive loves.

Peace.

Brehh – Iggy on Repeat

Slo on repeat

“When I call sometimes I wish you pick up
But most days the call is declined
It’s okay, I don’t give a fuck
You outta sight, so you outta mind
I’m doing alright know I’ma be fine
I gotta few candidates standing in line
Broke up before but I wasn’t like this
Not many regrets I wish I could rewind
Damn. We both got our lives so it’s no surprise
The Schedules conflict and we can’t coincide
My heart’s cold, feels like I got no insides
We rushed it to the finish line, we should have took our time
You make me crazy with rash decisions and sudden movements
Can’t even enjoy a moment or pay attention to it
If I could try this shit again? Real shit I’d probably do it…
That’s why it’s hard to act like you someone I’m really through with”

The music addiction is so real right now. Music is life. Also have like a gazillion Breathe Carolina songs going “classified” is the one though ❤ And “or nah” I can’t get enough of.

Peace.

Not interested

This is definitely going to come off as a slightly very much so bitchy blog. Sorry not sorry.

But just because I’m single doesn’t mean you can mind fuck and rape my photos on instagram unless you are legitimately one of my insta friends. (Which consist of Colin, Brett, Daniella or anyone I know in real life.) * This does not apply to you if you’re a hot chick – you’ve got free pass to do as you please. <- I crack myself up sometimes.

Also, stop DM’ing me. or I’ll block you. K thanks bye.

Oh side cheese – Yes I put my snapchat online – doesn’t mean I’ll add you or i’ll snap you back. Sorry. But I will send everyone the same snaps, or send you annoying snaps of my dogs. Hi.

Now to the other part of this blog, which is going  to be a rant of who/why/what/how the fuck I’m not interested in the people available.

Not interested:

Not if you live in Huntingdon.

Not if ya short or even my height. Unless you are Melodie- you love are perf’ ❤

Not if you don’t have a job.

Not if ya drink / smoke/ whatever the fuck more than once a week.

Not if you need attention from others girls consistently.

Not if you have a dirty Sanchez mustache – I mean please at least grow a real beard …

Not if ya obese or even over weight. <- Don’t mistake this for being a bitch and dating based on looks I like what I like and I refuse to settle for a turn off. I’m not asking you to look like Chris Hemsworth I’m just asking you not to have bigger tits than me. /done/

Not if you don’t like dogs.

And lastly not if you don’t like cars. Guys who aren’t into cars … like really ? Are you even male ? Where are your balls ? Do you even know what ‘stick’ means ? I mean we can be friends but I definitely wont date you haha. (Coughfriendzonecough)

It’s pretty sad how people don’t get ‘hints’ Trust me if I was interested you would know because I’d be talking to you. Or responding. And I really don’t even want to date. I want to lose 30lbs and fix my car up. Is there time for the D up in that mix ? Nah. Not really. Get over it.

Why do we waste so much time on finding ” mates” when we aren’t even our self ? when we aren’t happy ? I see so many people going into relationships unhappy seeking happiness and then they realize it can’t or their partners can’t fulfill their needs. I don’t need a relationship or even want one. I mean sure it’d be nice to kiss someone and cuddle someone – but I don’t need it and I’m not going to lower my standards just to get partial happiness and to not feel lonely. It wouldn’t last because I’m not being true to myself.

So I’m not interested overall. Not just of the options but also mentally, I just have no fucks to give. I want to work on my self. I want to work on my home. ON MY CAR <33 Give my dogs the love and attention they deserve. Be on time for work. Pay off more debt. Save money. And wholeheartedly and completely love myself, and there’s nothing wrong with that.

“Be the best version of yourself rather than finding someone better than your ex”

So suck it up buttercup :] #EndRant

Peace.

Priorities

Sorry long time no blog!

So prior to 2015 my priority has always been about working hard and getting an education.

has this changed ?

Obviously not, aha but the specifics have.Such being that I am no longer trying to finish up my college diploma. I have 3-4 courses to get before I get my diploma and 3 of which are french alone. Sigh. So for “college education” I’m taking a year off to pursue happiness (achieve my goals and ambitions). Wait what ? yea I know lmfao that’s stupid/crazy/unrealistic in this day and age because all we are here on earth for is to work and have children and buy things. YEAAA NO. Bitch please – Sure I believe in working hard and getting things with that money that’s the society I’ve grown up in. But I’m set with my job for a good while and gasp a minimum wage job you can’t do anything with that ? Yes, yes I can. I make enough to pay bills, own two dogs and a nice ass car and still save* (kinda save my savings have been a little low since I had a long-distance boyfriend and I used my money to see him and pretty much paid for everything.) But yes I love my job and I would never quit it for a higher paying job (I mean unless I make millions then we can start talking haha) and I love the physical / animal aspect of working on a farm. I will probably pick up a second job at some point because car parts LOL. Anyways the point being is that I want to be more constructive with my free time and not put it towards an education not this year at least.  But I will be pursuing CanFitPro probably, there’s a little health course I want to take.But me being me I will research things (you can categorize my two common interests as psychological things and health things with a side of documentaries)

Working is always a priority no change there- mind you I’m going to attempt to do more hours and be on time (or less late ahaha) I remember a couple summers ago I was doing 80hrs a week at the factory (russet house) I never plan on working that much again- it killed me. Though the dough was great almost 1k in a week. But not worth it in my opinion, the mental and physical stress is crazy.

So yea priorities work – save money

And my biggest priority under working is fitness and health. (*not diet and exercise those are temporary terms that set you up for failure.) I’ve been going at this since the 11th grade so ’09- i’ve gone up and down, gained some lost some and now I’m on the losing some. To date give or take depending on the day I’m negative 30lbs, in my personal opinion I have anywheres between 20-30lbs more that I would like to lose. And Sure people think I’m fine the way I am, but that’s their opinion- my goal is to be the stunner I was in 2011 and regardless of what others think I’m going to get there by September. And settling for an “ok” body is NOT really stimulating for me, the plain ol’ simpleness of settling doesn’t interest me. not even in the slightest. Being fit, being healthy, these things make me happy and running daily makes my happy – may or may not have to do with the chemical aspect of it; ENDORPHINS ! The point is that for me to be happy, I kinda have to work out – if I go 5 days without jogging or anything I get really annoyed and like need to jog. I can’t explain it without sounding like a nut job. But essentially I love to train, it makes me happy.

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY – Duck Dynasty

Anyways, So this year I’ll be working, working out, doing fun things, working on my car, meeting new people, Tomorrow World, Bae – bae being ma balt.

Peace

Truthh

Just saying.

Seriously doe

Merry Christmas everyone,

So I just got done work and am relaxing, and thinking and so forth.

Christmas is how you make it really, if you think it’ll suck it will if you think it will be great it will be. And then there are people like me aha that are stuck in the middle, I think Christmas is great (besides the materialism aspect tho) I love the idea of seeing all your friends and family and just spending time together.

Now what I don’t like, really and its unchangeable is the fact that my mom is no longer here – over the last year I have taken this and used as a drive for my ambition – in a positive way. Being me I always try to be positive, and I achieved many goals over 2014.

But I really just was not feeling the whole Christmas spirit – until a rather small gesture kinda made my wholeee day :3 So this pretty-fucking-amazing-asfuck-guy gave me a call (well 3 calls actually); like I said rather small gesture but Jesus did it make my day. I was on time (kinda) for work and I had a perma-smile on my face. Like seriously guys you have no clue how amazing it was just to talk on the phone with someone whom you can’t see on Christmas that you care about.

Which brings me to the semi conclusion of this blog, small gestures guys- you don’t need to spend every last fuckin penny you have on someone to show them you care. All it took for me is a call and I’m on like cloud 9. Not to get corny or anything it’s the small things that count :3

Have a merry Christmas and remember that it’s not about what you get, it’s about what you do for others and what you give that matters the most, alongside the small things in life ; appreciate the people around you cherish every moment because one day they won’t be there. Also the small things ❤

Peace.

Black Beauty

Well folks as you may have previously read “Fiat” I was complete turned off by the fiats/smallcars/rollingdonuts haha that last one though.

Anyways I did consider other cars. I had already seen the cobalt but was not sure about it (until I drove it) and then it was like love.  But before we jump forward – I was also considering a Subaru wrx and/or a srt4. But considering I didn’t take the time to find a nice Subaru and as for a srt4 I already have two neon’s a third would have been over kill even if it was boss. Now we can proceed with the cobalt part of this – went for a test drive and knew it was the one. haha that’s it. Like, I can’t even. Aw man it’s just perfect, bae.

May I add how everything is perfect, not a spot of rust, handling it is great. Shifter/clutch takes adjustment – considering I’ve been driving neons (before a civic and a hyandia excell) it was different, the cobalts very precise and the clutch well haha I stalled it on the first try -just the once- you live and learn come on hah. But its nothing like the other standards I’ve driven.

And I mean it’s just a load of glistening sexyness 🙂

Also “Check la wing” gosh my car for a car anyways has a nice backend :p

Advice of the day : Achieve your dreams mine was a sexyasfuckcar <— Done 😉

Peace.

Goals ? Budgets ?

What are those?

hah since this school semester I kinda went off the grid in terms of money.

I bought a dog which then got sick

Bought a beater car

Bought a summer car

Bought a sounds system

Waiiin.

So much money spent and right now I’m sitting at 1k in my TFSA – so poor.

And this month I have quite a bit to pay for. Such as a speeding ticket, a tempo, ah Christmas, riding lessons.  I know that these things are 1) unnecessary 2) my fault 3)wants not needs

But it still sucks.

January I’m not going to spend any money I don’t have too (AKA resto’s, movies, extra gas for random driving, shopping..)

And I’m going to pay off as much as I can and hopefully by my Birthday have another 1k in my tfsa.

No matter how often you fall off of the bandwagon always try to get back on set smaller goals and achieve them one step at a time 🙂

peace.